I almost lost you honey 
On days you never chose me
Sometimes it saddens me
Because she made you happy

You may have not left me
Yet most of the time, it still haunts me
That someday you wanna be free
Because others can be more lovely

For more than a year, we had plenty great adventure and memories. We have our happy moments, loud laughs, sweet victories, and glory days. But just like ordinary couple, we also have our share of bad days from petty arguments, misunderstandings, and major fight. Well most of it was because of the trust issue coming from my previous love mishaps and his wide and eventful dating history. I am confident that I am the good one in our relationship eventhough I’m demanding, skeptical, and moody. I cannot remember any fight that was started by him. Pero basta ako pa din yung mabait. Haha. He is good din naman but everytime that I get mad at him, I have doubts if he’s good enough ba (pm me for details kung bakit ko sya inaaway 😜). I cannot say that we completely know each other already. Surely, we still have our own secrets, unshared life tales, and personal ideals. But yesterday was a meaningful episode in our story. I met his mom. And I have the greatest admiration to him after that day. It felt like we came back to “getting to know each other” phase. Yet this time, it was from his mom’s perspective. By the end of the day, our relationship that compose of 98% of mabait me and 2% of mabait him became 50% is to 50%. He certainly achieved the good enough remark. He’s actually more than good, he’s a great guy. I fully understand his “pinakapogi, pinakamalakas, pinakamagaling” claims. I always respond why are you mayabang when he says that. I realized the deeper meaning of that during my conversation with his mom. My boyfriend is determined, passionate, and goal oriented. His life experience has shape him to be driven and hardworking. I adore how ambitious he is, the good kind of ambitious. I couldn’t be more prouder because I am witnessing his step by step success. He actually inspires me to be at my best as well in my career. I also found out that he has this selfless side. He cares about his family. At a young age, he became a responsible brother by prioritising the welfare of his siblings. His mom would have not survive parenthood if he became a selfish son. This guy may be hot tempered and argumentative sometimes (minsan kasi reasonable naman sya. hmmm. oo na madalas na valid talaga argument nya. HAHA) but surely he has a kind heart. I also observed how he treat his mom. This person was not really the sweet type not even to me haha. But his concerned gesture and thoughtful ways for his mom is surely admirable. I still have a lot to share but I’m still savouring the moment in my head. My heart is full and I am nothing but thankful. I honestly wanted him to introduce me to his mom during our early days. Pero sabi nga ni jowa, may readiness kasi yun. And yesterday was just exactly the right time. I appreciate this, babe. Thank you! ❤️

08.25

on some days, i wonder honey
if you feel lucky to have me
or am i just a responsibility.

it worries me
it makes me weary
you tend to forget me when you’re happy