Pet Peeves and Trust Issue

I got a list of life issues. It's A LOT. Major and minor, non sense and on point, even rants you will get irritated that you will end up having issue about me. Haha. Sometimes I don't care, most of the time I do. I easily get distracted, I am emotional, I overthink. I got missed chances, messy love stories, weird life events. I'm a self confessed judgmental (my bad) then of course I don't like being judged. Hate me. Well haters gonna hate. There's still more to love in me. Hoho. Anyway let me share examples of my pet peeves. We might jive. Hihi. No judging phlueaseee!

Jejemons

Common grammar mistakes

Use of incomplete letters in text messages (negotiable)

Billy and Coleen

Couples who seat beside each other on fast food/restaurant

Couples breaking up even if they still love each other

Concert goers who video the entire show 

Obsessive cheering/school spirit even though you studied from the branch campus 

Loud conversation/phone chats at public transport

Ig user who #likeforlikes and #likeforfollow

Flirts, major flirts

Too much PDA

Leaving without notice, on a deeper sense of leaving

Okay, I realize most of my rants are shallow. I got many issues but my list doesn't include trust issues. I had an unfaithful boyfriend before that could've provoke me to choose people to be trusted. Nevertheless, I still give away my trust to many. I easily share my secrets to people. I easily cling to promises. Glad I wasn't a victim of pyramid scam or networking. Hoho. I easily believe in commitments. It was only until last Saturday when I had this huge dilemma. I got pissed off when I heard how a friend just gave up his fight on dignity and morals. It all went wrong when he have fully trusted someone. Kakainis!!! Pwede na magtagalog para intense?! Asar na asar ako e. He is such a good hearted person. He became a colleague and friend for more than four years now. Mabait, matalino, marunong makisama, magaling sa trabaho, okay na kaibigan. Sanay na kong matagal sya sumagot sa queries, nevertheless  bilib pa din ako how he handle his job. Struggle yung follow ups pero hindi nalakagalit kasi nga maganda yung foundation at relasyon nyo as workmates. Until a news came up na he is in trouble. Sobrang daming rumors, accusations, and bad publicity that he got caught off guard. Naapektuhan yung trabaho, damay damay na. I chose to understand his situation. Buti nalang hindi ko sya masyadong ginulo. After hearing everything from his side, I felt  sadness pero I got amazed in his courage. Fudge I wish I could talk about it to someone who doesn't know anything or who doesn't know him para mailabas ko yung feelings ko without initial judgement. Nakakagalit lang how someone he trusted have forgotten everything, his kindness, his helping hands, and generosity. Tinulungan ka, kinaibigan ka, nakitungo ng mabuti sa pamilya mo, pinagkatiwalaan mo tapos ang ending sya pa ang sisira sayo. I believe that my friend never intended to do wrong on you. It was you who have gone wrong sa sarili mo. Grrrr. What goes around comes around nalang. At least my friend already got a peace of mind. He has to go but at least he left with a clean slate. Yung iba nagstay nga pero haunted by conscience naman. Good luck nalang. Feeling ko tuloy after marinig ko yung nangyari, may trust issue na din ako. 

Dead End

So okay. I was having a dilemma about this person. I am having a hard time dealing with my issues so I ended up asking for signals. On October 14, I catch upon timehop and this was the sign given to me.

 

Commercial: I actually got kilig when it was favorited by Charles in twitter and he even replied to me.

It eventually came running in my thoughts throughout the day. I wanted to share the statement in instagram so I look for photo that will resemble the feelings. Timing that I did punchlisting of a condo hallway without lighting that day. The photo is unintentionally for ig feed, it is meant for work reference only. Until I realized that it was perfect photo-caption tandem for my thought for the day.

I am doubtful if I will tag Charles in ig because I am satisfied with the twitter interaction and I feel shy for being too emotional. But still I did. Then he liked the photo. Then he commented. Then I died. Chos! So he told me to not lose hope. Oh fudge the signals. I ended up being confuse again. Haha.

I realized that his advise is applicable for different situations. Not mine though.

It can actually be applied to politics especially now that the election is upcoming. Duterte isn't meant to run as president as he have decided. But still the country isn't a dead end, don't lose hope. Vote wisely sabi nga nila. Sino ba si wisely? Acheche!

It can also be connected to goals you did not achieve. Career, studies, love. A job, a course, a partner that is not meant for you. But it is never a dead end, don't lose hope.

It's just that my situation is about this one guy I should've lost hope for. We really aren't meant to be since day one. The advise ended up to be not for me or else tatanga tanga na naman me. Mehehe. Apir tayo jan Charles Tiu. Haha. Tenkyu still!!!

Not Yet

She had you first, you loved her first

You aren't actually became mine 

For a time I thought I was yours

But we were never together, there was never an us.

Don't get married yet

When I ain't over you

If I'm still healing

While I'm fixing the broken.

It may be my selfish way

To avoid all the hurt

Would you please wait

Just before I wed.

I wanted us to be happy
You and me separately

Happy for each other

In our separate lives.

iG gamer

This guy will double tap random instagram posts. I believe he doesn't even like some of the photos. Per my judgement, he is choosy, has high standards, paimpress, pafriendly, papogi guy. I concluded that he click like so he will gain likes in return as well as followers. #likeforlikes #likeforfollow A real ig gamer. Haha inis na inis lang ako. I cannot blame the followers because he got real charm. But I am still not impress with his game or technique or whatever. I feel pity for annethusiast and theweatherwitchproject who are not yet over with his pacute ig pafeels. Haha fudge you G! Instagram is supposed to be beautiful and posh, no jeje allowed. Your feed is nice but you're flirting with ig users. Huh. Hehe. Gusto ko lang magrant. Kbye. ✌️

No Filter Feels

Had I become a good writer, I could've share a beautifully made blog post about Sandbox No Filter. Millennial frustration. I remember that aside from being a civil engineer and interior designer, I have considered Journalism as a college degree. I think and write a lot of everything under the sun. I always want to document experiences and read it again from time to time. It's just that I have not mastered nor learned the blog worthy writing skills. So yah, I end up studying numbers, math. I could've been any prouder upon passing the board exam. But I never stop wanting to achieve new goals. Thus the plan to take up interior design course or pursue the ambition of being a legit blogger.

Back to my story about No Filter, I am truly overwhelmed on how great the craft was. The writers are just superb. All the monologues brought the real feels. It was like watching my life, my friends' lives, our generation's exact thoughts. It captivates the personal, social, emotional, even spiritual views of most of the millennials. 

The actors have done such good jobs. They were delivering monologues as if it was their personal  real life stories. The acts are intimately done, passionately performed. 

I wish I could've remembered all the best lines, quotable quotes from the different monologues. It was just too many that it was rambling in my mind. I am still in awe on how it was wonderfully created. Pure genius. Ang ganda. Ang galing. I am left amazed act by act by act. Yung feeling na satisfied ka na sa napanood then wait there's more pa. Yung feeling na gusto mong dagdagan yung binayad mo kasi all the emotions you felt and gladness you have and realizations they've put on you is not worth 1k only. One minute you are laughing then the next moment you will find yourself in tears. I may not remember the best of lines from the monologues but the impact it made in my life will surely never be forgotten.

I am watching it again. I hope you believe me that it was perfectly produced. Real damn good. I wouldn't decide to catch it again if it was just a so so. Come on millennials, it's a sure cool stuff.

Sandbox No Filter

Sandbox group held a contest as they give away tickets to the preview night of No Filter 2.0. I thought that my entry is good enough. As much as I love my answer to "What makes you a millennial?", I am not able to win the contest. Apparently, there are far more better and brilliant writers than I am. I actually admire those word smiths. A frustrated writer like me will always question how do they even come up with great stringing of words. Ugh! Anyhow, I am sharing this poem about being a millennial.

I am millennial.

My life goals I strongly hold

In this fast pace world

Adventures yet to unfold

Every day that I get old.

I blog to express

I dress to impress

My bucket list is countless

I cling to happiness.

Going social to have connections

Keeping some friendly conversations

Making efforts to please a person

To enlarge circle of acquaintance to turn on.

Some days I am restless

I cry when I'm depress

When trials hit me the hardest

I still choose to be fearless.

I am hopeless romantic

My love stories are sadly drastic

Yet I chose to be optimistic

That there's in store for me that is beyond terrific.

I work hard and play harder

Striving to be a good game changer

Trying to be a trend setter

In the generation that most of us want to conquer.

I am a dream catcher

I wonder and wander

I am an ambivert girl

True to my character, no filter.

I am millennial.

There you go. Nevertheless, I'd still take a chance to catch No Filter 2.0. I heard good reviews from their first installment so I guess it will be worth the price.