March Madness

1. Gig and concert overload from Bianca G.'s book signing to Sheeran's Multiply Tour to Nikki's Love Revisited album launch to One Direction On The Road Tour Again. I am much of a happy fan girl.
2. Pressure feels from wanting to study again versus staying on the job I love.
3. Career on the rocks. I can never please everybody. Thus, got me thinking about above mentioned dilemma.
4. My boss / mentor is supportive. I'm glad she is by my side beyond the circumstances. 
5. But my colleagues are not in good terms with her. Much of how I feel when I am at their age.
6. Four year of love-hate relationship with the job. So fast but I still feel unfulfilled at times. I am happy on where am I but there will be things that can be described as happier. Currently confused.
7. I miss writing. I miss stringing words into poem. I miss sharing stories in this blog. I am preoccupied with thoughts that I tend not to put it into writing. If I am on my regular self, I could write all about 1 to 7 in a single entry each but my mind is too tired. Haha too emo to handle.
8. I wanted to travel. Go faraway, soul search, think out loud. Alone.
9. Unleashed 4 just happened. I saw how happy my favorite teenager (before) was. Finally, I'm over it.
10. Quarter life crisis, deymn you!

Tuesday Thought

"I'm sorry if I say, "I need you"
But I don't care,
I'm not scared of love
'Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker
Is that so wrong?
Is it so wrong
That you make me strong?" 

The pressure was on me. I needed some company. 

Emo Friday

We tend to disagree 

Until we get used it 

And it became funny. 

We are opposite 

Until I get attracted 

And you became my favorite. 

We are happy 

Until I was the only 

And you became my mistake.

SOS

I got the signs 

The wrong ones 

I don't know how to discontinue 

The feelings meant for you. 

Save me!!! 

Sepanx

I was able to drop by at our sister office yesterday. It was nice to see few good friends and crushes and chat with them. Haha. I will miss the group definitely. The group who taught us how to party - hardest. We will work separately again. Deymn. I really had problem on unattachments.

No Valentine and Summer partey. Bad breakup. Haha

A while

From some few days ago until today, my smiles has more meaning. I wish I could tell the world. Maybe someday soon.

Sheeran Feels

1) Teddy is Taylor's best friend.

2) I have loved Teddy since Lego House. Way before Thinking Out Loud became the national anthem. 

3) Teddy is musically talented- from singing, rapping, guitar playing and of course, song writing. 

The above mentioned were the reasons why I decided to watch his Multiply Tour Manila. The tickets were sold out on the same day of first ticket release. When they announce that there will be next batch of tickets for sale, I am left broken hearted because after few hours, tickets were sold out again. Thank you to my scalpers connection for making my concert attendance possible. March 12 is no ordinary day since yesterday. On the next years, the time hop will remind how happy I am as I cross out a concert bucket list. 

One rectangular stage, fancy play of lights, a set of beautiful visual background screen, few sound system including microphone and his guitars - Ed Sheeran performed as one man band. And he just did it with greatness and awesomeness and perfection. 

Photos from Philippine Concerts Facebook Page:

X-Tour: Ed Sheeran live in Manila setlist

1. I'm a Mess
2. Lego House
3. Don't/ Nina
4. Drunk
5. Take It Back/ Superstition
6. Photograph
7. All of the Stars
8. Bloodstream
9. Tenerife Sea
10. Thinking Out Loud
11. I See Fire
12. The A Team
13. Give Me Love
14. You Need Me / In Da Club / Fancy
15. Sing

My favorite statements were: 

1) This is honestly the best reception I've ever received.

2) I don't wanna leave the Philippines. I'm overwhelmed with the reception.Thank you so much!

3) My first time in the Philippines but definitely won't be my last

I love you I love you I love you Teddy! You may not be the cutest, but you are always adorable, EDorable. 

Tuesday Favorite

My favorite client unexpectedly called me.

Sorry mali pala yung nagawa ko.

Sir sorry din mali din kasi yung instruction ko.

Aaah ikaw pala mali e, sige baguhin ko nalang. Hehe. Kelan ka ulit babalik?

Bukas Sir or sa Thursday or Friday.

Sige bukas nalang.

❤️

My friend suggested: "Sir gusto mo din bang magkamali sakin." 

Haha. My bad.

Some stories are just note worthy. No one read this anyway. Stuff here aren't for public consumption.

Legal

Happy Birthday ex lover.
I won't try to reach you anyway.
I miss you though.
You won't even read my blog.
Welcome to being legal.

Paano ba 'to?!

Way before I became a #jcandb fan, I am already a Bianca Gonzalez fan. Along with Nikki Gil, she is my blog inspiration, morena beauty peg, and advocacies idol. She talk smart, writes with enthusiasm, and is kind hearted. My bucketlist includes meeting her in person. I was able to watch some of her live hosting gigs and I was once her group mate in a relief operation. We've also exchanged few tweets. Yesterday, I met her again in the signing of her first published book - Paano ba to?! in Fully Booked High Sreet. 

I'm glad I was able to bring a friend with me. I was literally rushing and running from work so I can catch my long planned attendance to the event and to finally cross it out in my bucketlist. My Nixter friends Kuya Calc and Mitch were also there so we had a little catching up. I've been to different book signing events and this got to be the most chillax and happy vibe. Bianca is approachable and able to exchange small conversation. I was in awe with her words. Here's a photo of my autograph signed book: 

There are many self help books available in the market and Paano ba to?! is a sample of worthy read. A survival to growing up, the book contains advice about family, friendship, love, career & money, failures, fashion & beauty, purpose, and self. It is very relatable as it tackles frequent challenges faced by young generation. It also has suggested activities that made the book interactive. There are stickers available that you can play with while others colored the doodles in random pages. Some highlight their favorite lines, others insert side notes, and at every chapter, there is a whole space provided for a question to ponder. No wonder it belongs to the list of best selling books. 

Way to go, B! Congratulations and Happy Birthday in advance! 

Wanderlust

Take me to places 

Let us wander 

With our map and backpacks 

At dawn or twilight.

May it be land, air, water 

May it be mountain, island, beaches 

At the sky or under the sea 

Let us chase adventures.

Capture few photographs 

Create beaucoup memories 

Cross out bucketlist 

Of tourist spots and beautiful sceneries.

Take me to destinations 

A trip to far away 

Let us see wonders 

And remember the days.

Travel inspired;

The Brother

I've always wanted a big brother, a kuya. Someone who will protect me, who will be my guide to guys, who can advise me, teach me sports, and all other stuff that big brother and little sister does. However, when I realized that I won't be the eldest I declined the thought of having a brother. Haha. Because eldest rules the sibling relationships.

God gave me a little brother instead which I am very thankful for.

It was March 20 of 1995 when my mom was not able to attend my kindergarten graduation. By that time, she was about to give birth on her 3rd baby. The family was very happy because finally, a little boy they've been waiting for was born. My brother is the only guy in the clan which shall disperse our surname. Because eventually my sister and I will have to change our surnames as we marry.

We grew up in a happy home. I admire how my parents manage to keep the bond among us. The photos from family albums can attest how close we are. From Sunday church, to eat outs, to school activities, to Manila trips, and different family gatherings, we all are present together.

It was during college when I had to part ways with the family. As much as I wanted to guide the brother at adolescent age, teach him in academic projects, and attend to his school activities, I am but a hopeful university student during that period. I go home only on holidays for I was too busy with the city life. Nevertheless, every chance that I can be with the brother, I make sure it'll be fun.

We like the same music genre as for OPM and alternative. We listen to the same radio station. I encourage him to read local books. We are big fans of How I Met and Big Bang. We enjoy watching movies, not much of a chick flick for him though. We dress well enough I guess as I meddle with his fashion style. We review gadgets. He discusses to me his Engineering course. I share my weirdest, brilliant ideas to him and he willingly listen. I spoil my brother. I love him. I may not have a kuya but he is more than enough to be with me whenever I needed some brotherly love.

Girls, he can be a good boyfriend. But sorry, I am much of a choosy, strict ate.

Love you Austin! Happy Birthday!

Midnight Musing

We will always have secrets

Some are only best kept

For us to avoid getting hurt

For good people we don't want to left.

I don't know how I got into this

I just need to choose happiness

When do we leap a step ahead

May this joyous feel won't come to an end.

A okay

Today.

In your Adamson uniform 

And your happy face

With your funny gestures.

Damn, I miss you.

It's your birthday month. 

That Thing

not called tadhana.

I will just pretend that I know nothing 

Until such time that you will have the courtesy of telling me everything 

I will just go with the flow 

Because I've already invested feeling.

Tomorrow could be sorrow 

Never will I know where this will go 

Never will I be prepared of getting hurt 
Although I mastered how it felt. 

Nonetheless I am thankful and glad 

With the thing that we have 

I always wish for happy ending 

This time I hope my heart won't end up breaking.

Thoughts from the great stalker.