Tuesday Favorite

My favorite client unexpectedly called me.

Sorry mali pala yung nagawa ko.

Sir sorry din mali din kasi yung instruction ko.

Aaah ikaw pala mali e, sige baguhin ko nalang. Hehe. Kelan ka ulit babalik?

Bukas Sir or sa Thursday or Friday.

Sige bukas nalang.

❤️

My friend suggested: "Sir gusto mo din bang magkamali sakin." 

Haha. My bad.

Some stories are just note worthy. No one read this anyway. Stuff here aren't for public consumption.

Legal

Happy Birthday ex lover.
I won't try to reach you anyway.
I miss you though.
You won't even read my blog.
Welcome to being legal.

The Brother

I've always wanted a big brother, a kuya. Someone who will protect me, who will be my guide to guys, who can advise me, teach me sports, and all other stuff that big brother and little sister does. However, when I realized that I won't be the eldest I declined the thought of having a brother. Haha. Because eldest rules the sibling relationships.

God gave me a little brother instead which I am very thankful for.

It was March 20 of 1995 when my mom was not able to attend my kindergarten graduation. By that time, she was about to give birth on her 3rd baby. The family was very happy because finally, a little boy they've been waiting for was born. My brother is the only guy in the clan which shall disperse our surname. Because eventually my sister and I will have to change our surnames as we marry.

We grew up in a happy home. I admire how my parents manage to keep the bond among us. The photos from family albums can attest how close we are. From Sunday church, to eat outs, to school activities, to Manila trips, and different family gatherings, we all are present together.

It was during college when I had to part ways with the family. As much as I wanted to guide the brother at adolescent age, teach him in academic projects, and attend to his school activities, I am but a hopeful university student during that period. I go home only on holidays for I was too busy with the city life. Nevertheless, every chance that I can be with the brother, I make sure it'll be fun.

We like the same music genre as for OPM and alternative. We listen to the same radio station. I encourage him to read local books. We are big fans of How I Met and Big Bang. We enjoy watching movies, not much of a chick flick for him though. We dress well enough I guess as I meddle with his fashion style. We review gadgets. He discusses to me his Engineering course. I share my weirdest, brilliant ideas to him and he willingly listen. I spoil my brother. I love him. I may not have a kuya but he is more than enough to be with me whenever I needed some brotherly love.

Girls, he can be a good boyfriend. But sorry, I am much of a choosy, strict ate.

Love you Austin! Happy Birthday!

A okay

Today.

In your Adamson uniform 

And your happy face

With your funny gestures.

Damn, I miss you.

It's your birthday month. 

The Dress

I sleep late the night before. I woke up at 4:30 am the following day. I lack sleep. Nevertheless, I feel happy that morning. I am cheerful and up for good vibes.

That day,the social media is on noise. I checked Twitter and the top trending is #TheDress. I browse instagram and saw arguments on whether the dress is white and gold or black and blue. My Facebook timeline is flooded with the dress photos.

I cannot understand why others keep telling that the dress is black and blue. Obviously, I am team white and gold. I can clearly see the white and gold detail in the dress. Although at glance, I can see shade of blue, lightest blue. So I switch to blue and gold. Haha. Maybe because I am open to listen and look why on earth they are telling that the color is black and blue.

I've search answers from the Internet but I was never satisfied with the explanation.

 But Taylor does see black and blue. Whyyyyyy?

On that same day when I confidently said I am happy, I discover a thing that somehow made me feel down. My feelings are kinda abnormal. At any moment, I can shift moods given unexpected scenarios. We all are. I was actually crying on my way home. But I am no bipolar please. Haha.

So my friend sent this explanation. I still do not believe.

I was still bothered at midnight. I decided to check the same photo in instagram and in disbelief, I am seeing black and blue. Damn you emotions. Haha.


When I check again in the morning, I saw white and gold. And while I am writing this post, the photo is black and blue again. I guess I know the answer. Am I insane now? Haha. How about you? What colors do you see?

TGFF

I love meeting new people. My job allowed me to enjoy the opportunity to do so. I've been to different eye balls and meet ups. Never tried blind dating though. I am no Ms. Congeniality but I am blessed to have few good friends for keeps. Since today is Friday, I thought of writing a TGIF post. I changed it to TGFF though - Thank God For Friends.

I have a childhood sweetheart which I haven't had communication since he left after his vacation in our town. His lolo used to update me about him and lets me see his latest photos. I remember he is my first friend. I was three back then.

During elementary when you are required to have bestfriend/s, I met lovely girls named Sharlene, Anna, Kaypee, Leah,and Sherlene. Okay,so we had a group name - sajkls. Never will I forget the public school memories and growing up days. Every once in a while we tried to get in touch especially during holidays when it's the time of the year of hometown uwian. TGFF, thank God for Facebook. Nah. I mean thank God for friends. The last time I was with them was actually during All Saints Day when we visited the grave of our friend, Anna. I miss the grade school friends.

At my early teens, we transfer in village and there I met the village kids. We've pioneer a youth organization and establish good neighborhood. Good times are remembered from basketball leagues, village parties, newsletter writing, and different summer activities. I keep in touch with them through social media also. I never came back to the village though after parting ways with the ex.

My highschool loves are the best. I was actually part of two barkadas, all with awesome personalities. Ncoab (Joel, Reineer, Abi, Diane, Imee, Tristan, Kate, She, Levy, Diana, Melsheena) and Otheezt (Alfie, William, Hachel, Rachel, Mara, Kat). Most are the smart guys from the class. We (we talaga,with conviction.haha) are among the prettiest, the talented, the varsities, and the creative people. We've had some share of popularity in the campus but what we are proud of is the happy friendship we made.

I also have my solid Nixter friends. We applause for one celebrity only, Ate Nikki. We bonded from mall shows, to eat outs, birthday celebrations, Christmas party, tapings, and many more activities for the love of Nikki. Moreover, we managed to see each other even though there are no gigs. I am now into six years of loving my fan friends. Thanks Nikay who's the main reason why we build the happy relationship.

The girlfriends whom I met in gigs are also my loves. Rhona, Mhadz, Shay, Millet, and Karen are Sponge Cola fanatic like me. It's just today I've lost enthusiasm in gig hang outs. Guess I've overcome the crushing Yael days. Someday soon I can still try to come to shows. What I actually miss is the conversations with Kuya Yan. For now, I would like to thank god again for Facebook. I mean for friends.

My college loves gotta be my favorite. The whole batch was very close. Never we had competition on grades, only we were there to help each other. From projects, to plates, to thesis, to exams. From family problems, to financial, to friendship, and jowa rants. We managed to continue the closeness even after graduation. We enrolled in different review centers for us to share notes. We celebrated board exam success and cheered up the others who didn't make it. We are on weddings, birthdays, christening, despedidas, random inumans and every events we could possibly meet up. Our reunions are always full of laughter.

When I landed the job in Vista, I was the bunso in the department. I'm glad to have met friends from my batch at other departments. The company have hired amazing people. In my almost four years in CCD, I have acquired three different set of friends in the department. First is with the kuyas Gremar, JR, Elgie, Lester. I'm glad to have brothers from the workplace. I am thankful that they never bullied me. Second group was the pinakacrazy. Maybe because we are of the same ages. The mixture of makulit boys and girls who always gets sermon when laughing in the counter, whose night outs are always eat all you can, and the group with lots of healthy rants. Most of them are now in Singapore. We now hang out when there are balikbayans. Currently, I am with young girls and I am the big sister. My CCD loves now is with age range from 21-23. I get the feeling that I need to be mature when I'm with them. Or not. Haha.

Life is a wonderful journey. Share it with good friends, laugh around them, cry along them, be goofy and crazy, and most of all, be trusted. Value friendship.

P.S.I will update the throwback photos when I went home.

All Things Happy

My bookshelf at home consists of titles "The Happiness Project" and "This is what happy looks like". My aunt asks me, "are you not happy?" 

My blog also consists of unhappy poetry.

Activity: Count the word "happy" in this post. Hehe

So I was pressured to post happy thoughts. Guess I'm over with the heartbreak rants thus permit me to write about all things happy. I believe I could finish another round of 100 happy days and share a story of laughter everyday. Here now I will be sharing my current joy.


1. A no more. Yey! Stalking no more but still in a few poems. At least I can now smile about whatever past we had. No more bitter days,only better.

2. Ed Sheeran concert. I've been catching up on memorizing Teddy's concert set list because it's only few number of days from today before his Multiply Tour in Manila. I just cannot contain the excitement. Early apologies to the fans beside me. Please do not record the whole concert if you don't want to be disappointed. Coz we're in gen ad anyway.

3. All the LOL times with my #PJdessert girls. What brought us closer was actually Jaymee's broken heart. Might be also the reason why she always treat us for snacks. From then on, we've managed to exchange unsolicited jokes, throw punchlines, and laugh at shallow stories. We made fun of Jinky's wedding planning and baby bam bam was born. Our topics range from Jaymee's smooth biking boy, solving mystery in 50 shades of greenfield,and talking about Jinky's treating fb addiction. Our arguments from my "yes" to Mariz' "no" and Jinky's neutral answer "ikaw bahala" and "ano bang feeling mo". Lately we've tried guessing what Jinky's blog may be.

So the eldest was actually bullied. We love you Chinky. We talk serious but most of the time we're insane. The serious stuff shall be up on another post.

4. All the Manila concerts for 2015. I missed Bastille last January. Gladly I was able to watch The 1975. I am a happy fan girl when I found out that the artists I love will held concerts in Manila. At the same time, I am frustrated on how will I budget the ticket purchase and who's artist will I prioritize. I am sure going to Ed Sheeran as I mentioned and yup I am watching One Direction. I am planning to watch Owl City since it's a free show. Please take me to The Script, BSB, Katy Perry, Sam Smith and Maroon 5 shows. Or at least take me to the embrace of Adam Levine. Hehe

5. I am on 4 year count to Vista. Time flies so fast, I never thought that this job will be for long term. I've been around awesome people, good and not so good clients, learned my lessons, and had such great experience. So far, I knew I love my job.

6. College batch catch up. It seems true that at least every 5 years, you will have different group of friends you will mostly hang out with. I can attest to that. Thus, I always look forward to reunions. College friends were my favorite. I am glad that our planned get togethers are pushing through. I always enjoy university days flashback, sharing updates about old classmates and personal life, the civil engineering industry, and many "do you remember this and that?" stories.

8. Nikay's engagement to Kuya BJ. I've witnessed the ups and downs of her lovelife. I am happy to be trusted as she able to tell her new love story to us. I am happy to see Nikay at her best life now and in her wonderful journey with Mr.Albert. She truly is blessed with the love that she deserves. This is worthy of hashtag #relationshipgoals.

9. A more meaningful relationship with the parents. Closer bond with the brother. And forgiveness to the sister. I am done with too much drama. Guess I'm fine with the situation now.

10. Keeping social with a stranger. I like it that simple without fancy or pa cute messages. It was light and a little bit of fun in between. It is nice.

Life is short. Break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.

Whirlwind of Thoughts

1. My father and I agreed with the same standards when it comes to "the ideal guy". 

2. I wish my sister was my bestfriend. 

3. I wish my sister had the ideal guy standards same as me and dad. 

4. I felt really bad and mad. 

5. My parents are good hearted people. I cannot be like them given this current situation. 

6. Even though I am the closest person to that issue, I care not to explain to anybody. 

7. I cannot love a 17 year old mature boy.

8. I wonder if I am a good sister. 

The End

"We're only getting older, baby / And I've been thinking about it lately / Does it ever drive you crazy / Just how fast the night changes? / Everything that you've ever dreamed of / Disappearing when you wake up / But there's nothing to be afraid of / Even when the night changes / It will never change me and you" Night Changes, One Direction

But it does. Today is the end, A.

A-nagram

1. I dreamt of you. It was on the day of the release of Taylor Swift's Blank Space video. I had a good morning. Thank you for talking to me, on the other side of reality. Sorry because I am crazy - like most of any other girl. I almost wrote your name in the blank space. But it was your feelings who felt blank. 

2. I suddenly had to do university errands. If only we are friends, you could've done me a favor. 

3. near ex lad. This is an anagram.

near - we met from the nearby setting

ex - past, former friend 

lad - young man

4. A 13 year old heart of a 24 year old girl.

Over A

It isn't about revenge nor any rebound purposes

This time, I knew I wanted real, sincere love.

Day 4

10.06.2014 

"I knew for the first time that this won't work. Yet I give it a try because you're giving me hints that this thing might be fine." 

2AM Thought

"They're just girls breaking hearts/ Eyes bright, uptight, just girls/ But she can't be what you need if she's 17/ They're just girls / They're just girls" Girls, The 1975

Boys do too.

On Trophy Boyfriend

and reasons why I won't settle for less than the dream guy 

Most of my closest friends know how I regard high standards when it comes to choosing a partner. I've been single for years and never seriously dated anyone after parting ways with the guy who broke my heart. I'm much of a loner. I've got crushes and potential boyfriends but none worked out up to now. It's been ages since I started searching for the good looking, professional, rich, religious, family oriented, smart guy. I got my share of beauty, talent, wit, intelligence, and kindness to the world. But overall I am a regular girl and I am never a trophy girlfriend. I can be clingy but I am not high maintenance. However, I want my guy to be high maintenance and then I'll teach him to be jologs. I knew that somehow I had the characteristics of a woman who deserves to meet her dream man. I am choosy and I care to explain. 

1. I am a huge fan girl

If you come upon a chance to browse my blog or see my social network newsfeed, you will know how obsess I am in fan girling. There are few male personalities I admire and they became the standards of the future boyfriend. Because Chris Tiu, Champ Lui Pio, and Atom Araullo exist, I believe that perfect guys are out there. I actually saw one before but we weren't meant to meet yet. 

2. I had a terrible past 

It is seriously a bitter story. He was the cousin of my uhm teenage great love maybe. I should have realize that it was actually the sign - to do not date guys who came from the same clan. Well then I was young and vulnerable. I'm not yet the hopeless romantic kind and I am but overwhelmed with the gesture that this guy is showing. I remember promising myself that I will not commit into a relationship until I graduated in high school. True to that promise, I said yes to the first boyfriend on summer after high school. I knew we were happy back then but I cannot remember any details now. All I had now was the regrets of having him in my history. I met his family and being family oriented was the only criteria he passed if we were to refer to my ideal man checklist. I hate him a lot because he was a cheater. We broke up but I guess I was madly in love before that I beg him to stay. So the love story was extended. Thus, the biggest mistake of my life. Yup yup,too many hard feelings. One thing I am thankful for maybe was because of that terrible past, I get to decide that I shouldn't settle for less. 

3. Coz dreams are meant to come true

I dreamt of watching a Taylor Swift concert. It did not came true on the first concert but the second was surreal experience. I dreamt of meeting my idol and it come true, we even become friends. I dreamt of becoming a licensed civil engineer and it come true. And many more stories of fulfilled dreams in between. Thus, the future awaits for my dream love life to come true. I constantly pray about that. Surely it will be worthwhile to wait.

4. I am a girl. I am hopeless romantic.

Love letters, stargazing, cute photographs, out of town trips, movie dates, dancing under the rain, and everything sweet nothings you see in films. I am sucker for love stories. I'd love to have the sweetest engagement proposal and a lovely wedding. The movies I watch and the books I read are mostly of romantic genre. Purely the reason of the random daydreams about perfect moments shared with the perfect guy. I believe that happy ever after do exist.

4. The guy you'll want your parents to meet 

He got off from his car and he looks gentleman in his polo,denim pants,and sneakers. He was tense because it is the day that you will introduce him to your mom and dad. Interrogation started with where do you live, what do you do for a living, what course did you took up in college, and how much do you love my daughter, hehe. I look forward to that conversation and I've always wanted to brag that my boyfriend grew up to be a fine guy that my parents will trust. 

Some says there is no perfect man nor a guy who has a complete package of an ideal man. The one I am looking for can be negotiable then. If he won't be Mr.Perfect, at least be my Mr.Right.

Glenda Thoughts

I am feeling a serious state of calamity. 

1) Almost 4 days of no electricity and water.

2) I had to charge all gadgets on office or on site so I can get home with fully charged battery. Repeat process. 

3) Take a bath using mineral water. Mag igib from subdivision tank at 3am. Fall in line to be able get water supply provided by the fire truck. Makiligo sa project site. 

4) Mahirap magluto, magligpit. 

5) Mahirap magtoothbrush, mag cr, maligo. I miss you, water! 

6) Mag isip kung papano ka maliligo kinabukasan. 

7) Magipon ng tubig ulan. Tapos nung kukunin mo na, isang baso lang laman ng timba. 

8) Umasa sa pangakong may ilaw na within the day. Repeat process. 

9) Kumain ng pagkaing fast food dahil see no.4 

10) Yung Georgetown Subdivision samin, napalitan yata ng Ghost Town.
11) Masakit yung braso mo kasi nag igib ka. Ouch. 

12) On the brighter side, at least may bubong pa kami. Sa bahay pa din ako umuuwi at hindi sa evacuation center. May pambili pa kami ng no.9

Kung sana may jowa ako. 

1) May tatanggap sakin na pamilya para may matuluyan ako para maligo, makapagcharge ng phone, makanood ng tv. Haha

June Wish

1) to meet and greet Taylor Swift ❤️

2) to meet the one :|

Mid(20s)-life Crisis

1. Sometimes I like my job, sometimes I don't. I knew it wasn't the career I wanted. I still cannot figure out where to go, so I'm still here. I wanted to leave soon enough before I get too depressed on wasting my time in chasing dreams. It was an uneasy feeling since Monday. It feels like I want to runaway. 

2. I am ready to have a significant other. But I wanted the ideal boyfriend. But I am a regular girl. And boys wanted an ideal girlfriend. I ain't the one. Ktnxbye. 

3. My spiritual life is struggling. I remember way back in high school when I knew I am closer to God. I was a student catechist before and was able to preach God's word to young ones. I am able to attend a recollection and have confession every year. I hear mass every Sunday, I pray everyday, I got to reflect everyday. I hope I could go back to that routine. I wanted to but I am resorting to excuses like time,energy,and companion. I seriously have to work this out. 

4. I wanted to engage myself on a healthy lifestyle. I'd love to run, exercise, and choose nutritious food diet so I can gain back my fit body. Yet again, time, energy, and companion are my problem. Too much reasons. Nah. 

5. Some of my friends have started their own family. The thoughts of them having a baby sometimes envy me. But no, I don't want to have a child yet. It's just that when I see them post photos of their babies online, it seems that they are having their best life yet. Kids do bring too much happiness. 

6. I'm still mad with my ex boyfriend. I shouldn't have wasted my time for the wrong guy. As of today, I knew I wasn't ready for closure. Maybe because I haven't found the right guy whom I can be proud of compared to the damn exbf. So I'm still the looser here. I wasn't lucky in love I guess. Why do people choose to spend longer time with you when they knew they still have to leave you. Hassle.

And too many little problems in between. I wanted a turning point in my life. I don't know how.

03.01.2014

Maganda ka.
Nagpapahaba ka ng buhok no.
May boyfriend ka?

*dork*

Job Rants

I have said unlimited apologies, broke promises, and told random lies--to customers. I don't know if it is because of the nature of the job or is it because of my work attitude. #customercarediaries


As much as I've said sorry, I'm glad to have receive more thank you. It always matters to me. Gratitude is always appreciated.


I am torn between the career I wanted to pursue versus the job around the people I am happy to be with.


I wanted to take up masters degree but my schedule and savings won't allow me to.


I still hope to work around the busy streets of Ayala. The place where all of my Civil Engineering dreams have started.


I want a fresh start but I'm afraid to be the new girl again.


Will going back to start be worthy? I felt old enough to return to scratch.


I guess being in the comfort zone doesn't always mean being happy.

Too emo to handle. smh.fml.

Thoughts in Bullet

• The merge somehow made me happy. Although chances were too late, you're at least closer to me.
• I am enjoying the view of you 'til I got struck when I saw your wedding ring. It was regretful and sad.
• Your humor and your handsome face will always be adorable to me.
• You're too cute when you dance.
• I enjoy being with you. I like your flirtatious gestures. But that was still a friendly, only friend zone moves.
• I glance your house everytime I had a chance. I hope we'll see each other again. I miss our conversations.
• I met a cute guy today! :) He had a girlfriend though, and the saddest part is -- he is jejemon. huhubels