Frustrated

Some things really don't happen the way we want it to be. This past few days seem to be not so right for me. I've been to sleepless nights and endless thinking days. Two things. Work and Taylor Swift.

It was two months ago when my career path is steady and going well. When I passed the board exam last November, I felt all the good vibes in the world. I am real thrill and happy, thinking about landing a job few days after I rest and relax. I started the job application last January. I emailed and went to different companies since then. I enjoyed the experience because that was my first task in this new chapter of my life. That two months was all about going home tired, updating tita, mama, and papa about the job hunt, expecting a call from a company but never hear from them, befriending co-applicants, taking math exams, essays, i.q. and personality tests, receiving message for a scheduled interview, meeting hrd heads and engineers, and responding some good and not so good answers in interviews. But as of now, I still don't have any job, while everyone seems to be practicing their profession, and enjoying the Civil Engineering industry. It's like I've been waiting for so long. I feel like I'm left out. I'm bored at home, I'm not in the mood to read, I don't enjoy being online, I don't like watching tv, I'm not cool in blogging & writing as of the moment. I want a job. I have two pending job application now and I'm optimistic about it. I'm still patiently waiting for the right moment, right timing where God will give me the best that I deserve.  

Dilemma No.2. Taylor Swift Live in Manila on the 19th. I am totally in love with her and I'm feeling sad and disappointed 'coz I won't be able to watch her concert. Ever since I heard the news the she's coming here, I had the T-Swizzle syndrome. I have planned that I will join all the contests that will give free passes to her show, or purchase even the general admission tickets. The number of jobs I applied for appears to be the the number of contests I've participated. And it's plenty to count. I also call Ticketnet for almost three weeks, I think, asking for the ticket availability since it was sold out when I decided to buy one already. And like my dream work, I also haven't got my dream Taylor Swift concert ticket. My consolation is to know Ronna, who is one of the winner of Taylor meet and greet passes, I asked her a favor to give my gift and letter for Tay, and hopefully she can also ask Tay to sign my Speak Now album. Ronna is nice and sweet, she deserves to win the passes, meeting her is kinda cool. And as for me, I've decided not to go since I still don't have any job and it means I don't have money. I never wanted to be so happy with Taylor and soon after, be back in thinking about my career dilemma. Perhaps someday, somewhere, when everything feels fine, maybe I can watch her concert and even get up close and personal with her. Only God knows, and nothing is impossible with him. I trust his plans for my life.

It's just today, I'm frustrated.

Made my day!

Thank you Karen! :P
Thank you Kuya Yan! :))

My last blog for 2010 is dedicated to you.

written 10.29.10

Dear Cutie Pie,

Hey! I am writing this letter because I am longing for you. It is exactly 6 weeks ago when you made me believe that there is such thing as love at first sight. I never knew it could happen until I laid eyes on you. And now, I look forward to second sight, third, fourth, and forever. Finding you gave me that big time happiness and inspiration. I have found the reason to get kilig again. Physically, you are the perfect man that I am dreaming of. Your hair, your face, your skin, your body built, your height, your fashion (that green shirt, denim pants, white chucks, and gray backpack I can never forget), everything just fit to the criteria of my ideal man. First impression is you're the cool guy, an average student who excels in class every once in a while, one who enjoys hanging out with friends, a guy who goes to church, obviously a rich kid but seems to very humble towards it, and most importantly, one who loves his family and very close to them. I've been thinking of you every now and then, hoping that our paths will meet again. I so miss you Mr.Perfect, I hope to be friends with you. Then you might be the one who'll fulfill my daydream fantasies, I honestly want to be your girl and eventually I want to call you as Mr.Right too. You have this special place in my heart, you're important to me. I'll be the happiest if I see you again and will be more blessed if God allow me to be more than your friend. You're so close yet so far. I miss you terribly. I regret the seconds I missed looking at you and for not wearing glasses just to see you clearer in my last look before we go on separate ways. I'll leave it to fate. I'm still very much thankful to God 'coz he created my perfect man in you. Love you lots.