It was random work obligation and
there I’ve known you. I can’t use the word “meet”, because we weren’t
personally introduced to each other. I don’t know if you still remember me
because I won’t forget you’ve mentioned my name once during the time that we
are together. That was the sweetest thing I heard from you, when you call me in
my first name.
I remember the tough time I had
when I am waiting for my colleagues to talk about you and spill your name. I
have searched you in social network sites and I googled your name. I am deeply
into you. What have you done? Gush. *heartbreak*
This blog is an entry I will tell
to my children regarding “how I met their father”. Aaah, so much of HIMYM.
Aaaah, so much of daydreams about you. I
feel like I am the girl version of Ted Mosby. I am persuaded to found “The
One.” I wish you are the end portion of the fairy tale, I wish you are my
happily ever after, my prince charming.
I am writing this because I am
too confused. If you just knew that you are whom I talk about, you could’ve
have answer my worries, my fears.
Who is the girl in your social
site profile photo?
Why did you keep the profile
inactive then make it active after long months, then make it inactive again
after I add you as a friend?
You don’t want us to be friends,
maybe? Coz you don’t know me personally. Gah.
I check the sites of people close
to you, and saw a suspicious girl who might be your new girl.
But when you get back to social
site, the first girl photo was still there?
Is it you just don’t bother
deleting it, or she’s still the girl?
But how are you connected with
girl number 2?
Why does she have a hyphened
surname same as yours?
Damn it. Damn it. Damn it.
You can’t be married, where is
the wedding ring? Or the engagement ring?
If you marry her, why is she
still with the company?
Or is she really still with the
company?
Her email and messenger is
active. It isn’t allowed.
Or were you still in the company?
Who transferred to the sister
company?
Your relative may be the one
she’s in a relationship with.
You may be the reason why they
met.
But where are you in the New
Year’s photo of your family.
Are you with girl number 2?
Or do you spent the holiday with
the girl in the photo.
But why when I search in the
friends of girl number 2, your family (which I mean, parents and siblings) were
the only names I found.
Or maybe the guy who’s in a
relationship with girl number 2 doesn’t have a facebook.But you don’t have facebook, too.
I hate you. I hate that I love
you. I just wanted to scream. Scream that I hate you. Scream that I love you. What if destiny took a wrong turn
on its way to the moment when we are supposed to meet? Or was meeting you, the
wrong turn?
I’m sorry.
