Thursday, January 31, 2013

When I Met You

.:: www.FarsKids.Com ::. - 14. Everything Has Changed (Feat. Ed Sheeran) [128]

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Exactly the way I felt.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Poem 113: To Stop Loving

How?;
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overwhelmed with your existence
I am missing your presence
i wonder where our paths will Cross again
i wonder when our eyes will meet again.

i want to know more About you
i wish you feel the same way too
everyday i miss you
everyday i love you.

cyber stalking is what i do
so i can get iNfos regarding you
it’s too hard Though
because your facebook i cannot view.

it must be deleted or kept private
i assume the girl before wasn’t your girl anymore
fool enough to keep my hopes up
‘coz another girl seems to be around.

i come up with stories
i conclude situations
i am hurting this much
this feeling is too tough.

all the grand feelings i am getting
today is really bothering
should i continue pursuing
is it easy to stop loving?

Circa.01.30.2013



Not Chris Tiu

(c) Photo from Web

The anticipation of seeing you.
The forever I wanted to be with you.
You’re more possible.
But impossible.
This complicated feelings.
Better than I don’t know nothing than knowing something that’s hurting.
But I wanted to know still.
Yes. My feelings are complicated.
I’m sorry.
For myself.
I’m sorry.
If I love you.

Circa.01.02.2013

Poem 112: Glance

Short, lovely sight;
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quota in the morning
i knew the night wilL be exciting
lOoking for you everywhere
so near Yet far away

An hour passed
i haven't catch even one gLance
someone ask me to stand
but i sTayed during the presentation of award

You might be included
on the people who will go upstage
my instincts were right
you were called to go up

eyes were fixed on you
i'll surely miss you
everyday i wanted to see you
possible but very hard to do

your batch were called
my eyes were focus in front
and your happy smile i adore
you bring to me good vibes and joy

the night is young
my love so high
you went up for photograph
my last and final sight tonight.

Circa.12.12.2012

Poem 111: Glimpse of You

I love you;
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you're the first person i saw when we arrived
might not also but because i wanted and chose to see you, then i do.

i'm searching for you when we're about to form the group
lucky enough to be next to your troop
among the six team, am too glad that your line is Just next to mine.

yOu're one of the lead marshall
you're the one i admire
During the formation in fun run
your face wonderfully shine.

we startEd the marathon
to catch you up is the motivation
yet you were so fast
haLfway we meet, my inspiration.

everyone was effin tired
we were sitting on the road side
then i found you standing
when i look to my right, you are smiLing bright.

the next set begins
we stand by watching
saw another glimpse of you
in the bike your riding.

looking at you with amazement
i love you for being athletic
i smiled the whole time
though i regret for not watching the obstacles you survived.

the games were continued
too busy to catch a glimpse
i wonder where are you
everywhere i'm searching for you.

the team members have to group again
my happy meter once more has gain
and your group line beside mine
you catch my eyes, my heart.

everyone was again tired
grab some food to eat, water to fight the heat
there i saw you in the tent side
standing, smiling, everything feels right.

all head to the hall
to gather and to be happy even more
finding you from afar
glimpse of you 270 degrees from mine.

there's one more thing that made me happy
when they tease you to sing honey
you refuse, i know you smile behind
it didn't happen 'coz the boss came by.

then it's photo op time
your group went to the stage now
and i watch you when you pose
and i smile when you smile for the photograph.

we were sitting, waiting
glimpsing at you all the time
didn't waste the chance
'coz i don't know if it'll happen again soon anytime.

'til the program has ended
must be the saddest part
as you walk to the door outside
my eyes were on you, you don't know.

Circa.12.12.2012

This Road

(c) Photo from Web
The path I go through to meet you
The road that leads my heart to you
I never mind the distance I’ve gone to
I won’t get tired driving ‘til it lead me back to you.
I love you. 

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Valentine's Entry

When you replaced an old one to something new.

The old one. The bitterness of the past, the sad memories, but most importantly the lesson learned. Love can really be complicated, yeah, most of the time.

How do you define bitterness? Two things, maybe. 1) When you see your ex already moved one, already in a relationship, yet you still want to win him back and you're left as a looser 2) When you see your ex already moved one, already in a relationship, you don't love him and you truly, madly, deeply hate him, and he's a looser. However, love is still generally described as a happy feeling, so you'll always look forward to something new to smile about.

I get easily attracted to opposite sex. I ain't the friendly girl though so I'm having a hard time to do pacute moves to my crushes. One friend told me, "bakit di mo sila kinakaibigan?" and that made me think too. I should've been friends with these guys but it really wasn't my personality. I've been having crushes in numbers, but there are few that has just a great impact on me that they last long in my list-of-people-to-stalk. I remember back in high school when I had a huge admiration with these junior guys.Gah, social network wasn't really in that time, so I get infos about them thru my classmates who had the guts to befriend these cute older school mates. And my classmates who unfortunately like them too, gets more pacute highschool girl points and nakakakilig memories from them.

It was summer after highschool graduation when I get to meet boys in the village. Yeah, summer flingy, summer love. I've met teenagers, few years older than me and get to know them. Meanwhile, there are top three man I won't forget. Let's not count the guys around who I think just played and try courting me and my friends (and me being bitter). One guy must be the one I have love much but didn't end up with. One must be my ultimate crush. And one unfortunately became part of my life and destroyed the love life I shared with him. (bitterness count)

During late years in college, I've eyed older batch men. The experiences though must have repeated. I get their names, I get infos about them from my classmates who are friends with them, and thanks to Zuckerberg because facebook is an easier way of stalking. Haha. Let me mention the summer flingy also with this cute, weirdo guy. Hihi.

Meanwhile, this paragraph belongs to the guy I saw in jeepney going to Vito Cruz way back my board review days. I have daydream a lot about him and I'd be fortunate if I'll be able to meet him. The magic of love at first sight is happening to me. The magic of destiny might work too. Hi, La Salle guy (I assume) who wears green shirt, denim pants, white converse, and gray backpack last September 17, 2010, I hope our paths will cross again. :) Hopeless romantic, YES I AM.

At work, I get to meet people around whom I admire also. I cannot count them the same way I cannot name them. Most of them was quick admiration, and only few gets to stay in my daydream fantasies. Lately though, I've noticed that I am eyeing more older men than the way I did before. Most of my crush before were 3 years older than me. However, since last year, my long time crushes were 5 years above older than me. Can I just name Atom Araullo, Chris Tiu, Champ Lui Pio, and Adam Levine which are among my ideal partner in life. Plus the guy no.1 who is actually married, yet I really wanted to be my buddy, and the guy no. 2 who's been in my mind and heart ever since I met him.

I can say that guy no. 1 is my friend but there is still boundary line from us. We weren't the friends I wanted us to be. We had random talks and exchange of laughter. I just don't know where it will take us. Guy no.2 on the other hand, mentioned my name during our first meeting but I don't think he still remembers me. But at the back of my mind, I hope he does recall my name and face.

During the past year that I've get to know these guys better (because of stalking), Atom, Chris, Champ, Adam, Guy 1, and Guy 2, I realize that they are more man enough when it comes to relationships. They aren't the boys in my past who got tantrums and has shallow understanding. Or was it just because they were also young that time. One more reason why I am attracted to older guys is my longing for a brother. I've always want someone to be with in my sporty-trying-hard moments, carnival rides, nature trips, and all. Most importantly life thoughts talk on a man's perspective. I just think that these guys are mature enough and thinking on a long term basis. Although they knew how to have fun too, I thought they knew their priorities well enough.

So hi guy no.2, I'm existing. :) Happy Valentine's!

 

Thursday, January 24, 2013

LWWY

This was the song played in the avp of our Year End Party. This stuck in my head, and really had an impact on me.


live while we're young
one direction

Hey girl I'm waiting on ya, I'm waiting on ya. 
Come on and let me sneak you out. 
And have a celebration, a celebration. 
The music up the windows down. 

Yeah, we'll be doing what we do. 
Just pretending that we're cool. 
And we know it too (know it too). 
Yeah, we'll keep doing what we do. 
Just pretending that we're cool so tonight. 

Lets go crazy, crazy, crazy till we see the sun. 
I know we've only met but let's pretend it's love. 
And never, never, never stop for anyone. 
Tonight let's get some. 
And live while we're young. 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh 
And live while we're young. 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Tonight let's get some, 

And live while were young. 

Hey girl it's now or never, it's now or never. 
Don't over-think just let it go. 
And if we get together, yeah get together. 
Don't let the pictures leave your phone. 
Oh oh. 

Yeah, we'll be doing what we do. 
Just pretending that we're cool so tonight. 

Lets go crazy, crazy, crazy till we see the sun. 
I know we've only met, but lets pretend it's love. 
And never, never, never stop for anyone. 
Tonight lets get some, and live while we're young. 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Wanna live while we're young. 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Tonight let's get some, and live while we're young. 

And girl, you and I, we're about to make some memories tonight. 

I wanna live while we're young. 
We wanna live while we're young. 

Let's go crazy, crazy, crazy till we see the sun. 
I know we've only met but let's pretend it's love. 
And never, never, never stop for anyone. 
Tonight let's get some, and live while we're young. 
Crazy, crazy, crazy till we see the sun. 
I know we only met but lets pretend it's love. 
And never, never, never stop for anyone. 
Tonight lets get some, and live while we're young. 

Wanna live, wanna live, wanna live while we're young. 
Wanna live, wanna live, wanna live while we're young. 
Wanna live, wanna live, wanna live while we're young. 

Tonight lets get some. 
“And live while we’re young”

crazy, crazy, crazy
Yes, I am.

South Living

Maybe, JUST MAYBE, I am destined to live in South so we can be near to each other.

I wonder if you are still in a relationship with the girl I saw in facebook.
I wonder why you had to delete your profile.
I wonder if it’s really deleted or kept more private.
I miss you.
But Makati is South, too.

#wandering #southlovin’ #daydream #you