Happiness

I always love to laugh with you. 

Thank you for being around! :)

Something Wrong

I don't like seeing you sad. :(

Bring back those smiles, pretty please.

Poem 101: Hey Dream Guy

For you, who captured my heart in a charity event;

everybody's busy like you and me
everyone got some important duty
i am witH my peers, yOu're with your bestfriend
that moment's still stuck in my head

you talk to me, we exchange names, shake hands
my world stoPs, you were both cute and kInd
i kNow you're rich, a man i cannot reach
i smile, i see you're humble, i fall

hey dream Guy, i wantTo know more abOut you
hey aweSome, i like to gEt close to you
oh man, havE you ever think of me too
oh dear, i am longing to be with You

yOur smile really brighten up my day
i do admire yoUr charm in every way
i truly like that we're both fun-loving
mister outgoing, you Are amazing

is it cool for us to Go on a date
even if our lifestyle is different
yes i know, you're down to eArth
but will i get along with your wealthy family and friends

I wanna talk to you and laugh with you
through ups and dowNs i will be beside you
i will care and cheer for you, yes i do
because dear friend, i am in love with you

hold my hands, i will hold yours tighter
embrace me sweet, i'll embrace you sweeter
seal it with a kiss that we'll remember
hey dream guy, be with me 'til forever.

Circa: 02.23.2011

Poems

I'm posting my mushy poems, soon. Inspired by Taylor Swift! <3

Blog-errrr

I've been writing short blogs consecutively. Boring. Errrr. I should have switch to tumblr. Some posts are even good for fb posts or twitter only. Ahahaha. I wish I had more time to write. There are lot of stories I could have written. Unfortunately, it stayed in drafts, some in papers, in phone memo, and most were left in my brain. My drain brain. Many have changed. I miss the old times. The ME-times. In addition to being unable to write a longer blog with sense, the following are the old stuffs I wanted to reunite with:

Books. I cant finish reading a book nowadays. I'm still stuck with Unbearable Lightness of Being and One Day. I plan to read Perks of being a Wallflower and last Saturday night, after watching Bottomline, I decided to read Nicholas Sparks' novels. It's been so long since I plan to do a book review. So far, I have none. I chose to rest/sleep than to read. I'm tired, I'm lazy. I wish I'm more inspired. I wish I'm happier.

Tv Series. I terribly wanted to catch up with How I Met Your Mother, Gossip Girl, America's Next Top Model, Glee, and Pretty Little Liars. I'm no longer a couch potato. I miss.

Online Stalking. I haven't visited the social network accounts of my crushes lately. I recently found out that Y just had a girlfriend. My face got :-( and now I moved on. I'm a weirdo. Sometimes.

Friends. Need to catch up with Nixters, listers, cousins, elementary, high school, and college friends. Everybody seems to be busy. Hang out soon, pretty please.

I want to laugh hard. Life. Haaaaay. Those were mababaw dilemmas. Simple, manageable rants. One day, I know there's a good surprise. Let's see.

Project 30 Day Blog 4/30

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I'm not an aficionado of cramming but I'm always a "mamaya na" girl. Get my point? Ok. Nothing more to say. Proceed to writing your next blog, Jez. Ay mamaya na lang. :-V

Not a child

I miss being a child. No one stresses you out. No pressure from the people around you. No deadlines. You can sleep all you want. You can play whenever you want to. You won't be thinking problems. You can't feel the weight of the world. Everyone understands you because you're simply a child. But, I'm a grown up now. Sigh.

One Year

I woke up today differently. I felt there's something special. I check the calendar and it's 17th of September. On my way to the office alone, Aha, I figured what's happening today. Happy anniversary on being in love with you. It's been a year of hoping to see you somewhere. We could have been at the same place at the same time but we were not so destined to meet. Damn. Come on my way sooner. Come to my heart quickly. La la la la. Yah right, Jez, looser. Hopeless romantic. I honestly miss the feeling of being in love. Future boyfriend, pakibilis.

Other side of kwento: Mr.LoveatFirstSight is a LaSallian (I believe) and it's so timing that DLSU won 2nd place in Samsung UAAP Cheerdance Competition. Today, Sept.17, a year ago when I first laid eyes on you. I miss you.

Project 30 Day Blog 3/30

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends

Meet my newest family, the CCD-BD team. CCD stands for Customer Care Department while BD is Business Development. We had the same department head, thus, we are inseparable during birthday treats and night-outs.I am with them for 5 months now and I guess I'll continue counting. I am real grateful to work with them. A mixture of amazing, fun to be with, intelligent individuals. Most of us are engineers and they get to share things I must know in our profession. It's a fresh, good start. Thank GOD I',m learning everyday. I may not have fulfilled my Ayala dreams but being a Shaw girl felt nice.

                                   My first CCD Night Out- Club Chicago, Metrowalk Ortigas
                                   Left: Sir Allan, Elgie, Jayr, Lester, Miss Mae, Jessa, Gremar;
                                   Right: Lester, Jess, Jessa, Elgie, Sir Allan

                                                 Miss Mae's birthday celebration in office

Left: Miss Mae's birthday treat in Buddy's QC; Right: CCD Night-out-Cruise Ship, Manila Bay

From the Department of Love and Care,

Super Bianca Blog

Happy Anniversary, Bianca G! :)

I am really inspired and can relate with the random thoughts in your blog. You're one of the reason why I put up my blog site, jezolores.blogspot.com. Some of my posts were versions of the stories you share. I honestly had a hard time choosing my favorite, because all posts has it's wonderful highlights. The times when I said "I feel for you!", "I wish I were on your shoe.", "I wanted to visit that country, too.", "I hope I can be an inspiration to others." after reading your blogs. Probably, the post that has great impact in me is "life talks part one: on purpose" dated 12 November 2007. Same with your experience, 4 years ago, I'm now into "quarter life crisis". I'm new into our work place and the people around me were older, wiser. Being with them gave me realizations, that when you grow up, you became more focus on your life's purpose and goals. When you question yourself if "is it still worth it?", "is it the right time,right moment?", "is it time for a change?", "should i go out of my comfort zone?". At 21, I felt the need to make my own decision, being responsible on my actions, and the willingness to take risks. Being aware on what's happening in the community, politics, social issues, and the like. The things you ignore when you were young eventually became an important part of your world. LIFE. I thank God for life. This statement from your blog is so true...“remember, every single person in the world has a different thumbprint. there are no two people alike, at all, in the whole world! GoD has a reason for doing that! because each and every one of us has our unique purpose in the world.” That post reminds me that "Life is amazing, I am amazing, and GOD is the most amazing!" It's real cool how he created our lives differently yet he made it connected to each other. God's people may not have the same social status, but he ensures that one will appreciate and became happy with the life that he gave. I remember a life talk with my office mate as we passed by a highway. He said "Bakit kaya ang tao hindi masatisfy sa buhay?" I answered "kasi kinocompare natin ang life natin sa mas higher satin." He told me "oo nga,nagrereklamo tayo dahil pagod tayo sa trabaho, pero di ba mas pagod yung mga street vendor na maghapon nagtatrabaho, but compare their sweldo to us, mas may karapatan sila magcomplain, pero di ba, tuloy ang buhay nila. He adds "halimbawa, tayong mga engineer,kapag sinabi natin na sa worker na pangit yang tiles na yan, palitan mo yan, tapos na yung work natin, may sweldo na tayo, pero sila magsisimula palang magtrabaho." That talk really moved me, and made me appreciate those people.   Though life is not perfect, God created us uniquely so we can bring joy, become an inspiration, teach lesson, and leave mark to each others lives. :)

As for the blog giveaway, I'd love to receive a party at McDonald's. I will give it to the kids of Treehouse Daycare. Treehouse is a volunteer team that gathers children from Muntinlupa every Saturday in Muntinlupa Fire Station for a half day of study,play,eat,fun activities. Those innocent kids, those innocent smiles, they made my life more meaningful and fulfilling. ;) I'd also love to receive the salon day with Alex Carbonell for my aunt. She is with me in the city since 1st year college up to now. She use to provide for my studies and was beside me through ups and tough times in the university because my parents were residing in the province. My aunt is indeed an example of a hardworking person. At 60, she still works almost 24/7, for the welfare of the special children and person with disabilities under Department of Education and at the same time in order to help her pamangkins and apos in financial needs. I hope I can give her the makeover package, that way, I can make her glad in a simple way.

I'd like to talk more, but I'm running out of time. Thanks Bianca! :)

Project 30 Day Blog 2/30

Day 02 - The meaning behind your blog name



Breaking Free
Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens

Were soarin, flyin
Theres not a star in heaven
That we cant reach

If were trying
So were breaking free

You know the world can see us
In a way thats different than who we are

Creating space between us
Til were separate hearts

But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe

Were breakin free
Were soarin
Flyin
Theres not a star in heaven
That we cant reach
If were trying
Yeah, were breaking free
Oh, were breakin free
Ohhhh
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just cant control
Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
Rising til it lifts us up
So every one can see

Ohhhh runnin
Climbin
To get to that place
To be all that we can be
Nows the time
So were breaking free
Were breaking free
Ohhh , yeah

More than hope
More than faith
This is true
This is fate
And together
We see it comin
More than you
More than me
Not a want, but a need
Both:
Both of us breakin free

You know the world can see us
In a way thats different than who we are

From the soundtrack of the famous High School Musical, I chose BREAKING FREE as the title of my blog. My previous posts prove that I'm a true blooded Zanessa fanatic, but aside from that, I chose the said blog title because it speaks about positivity. I used to be the shy type, silent girl when I was younger, however, as I grow up, I learn to explore the things out of my comfort zone. I become the confident, optimistic, adventurous gal and I continue to be. Life is too amazing. Choose to break free, seize the day, and conquer your fears. Live, laugh, and love. Wink.

Encore: Breaking Free- Asian Version with my love, Ate Nix :))

Jampacked August

Dear 8th month of the year,

It seems that you're overwhelmed with my social life come back. See what you did to my schedule:

August 13
Treehouse Daycare- FINALLY! <3
August 20
Treehouse Daycare- no session
Elive- Nikki's Bday Celebration- fail
Office- yeah. i was in the office.
August 21
SFC Hang-out- fail
Sweet Charity- check. Greeeeat! :)))
August 27
Treehouse Daycare- activity cancelled
Sweet Charity- :( wish I was there.
Office- again.
Lola's Death Anniversary- check!
August 28
Indang, Cavite-  Long weekend! HOME!!!!

P.S. August 29 and 30, please slow down.

Vanessa Hudgens

One of my favorite girl has launched her website just recently. Check it out.

http://vanessahudgensofficial.com/

She's also in facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/VanessaHudgens

I'm real thrilled! Teehee. :>

Daydreamer meets Dreamboy

Meet my new love, Rez Toledo! ♥

Since he started his Astroplus shows, it's always been my plan to go. Natuloy lang ako just recently in Astroplus Megamall. Sa office palang, they were already teasing me that I'll be having a date since I'll be working halfday only. Nyaha. So, at around 2pm, I went to SM. I actually don't know what time exactly Rez will be performing. So, I just stroll  around the area. I was expecting Champ to be with him also, but I fail to bring my Synergy album. Autograph opportunity sana. Anyway, while buying my Somedaydream shirt, Rez came in. All I heard was 'Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah'! Imagine, girls shouting na kinikilig! ♥ So, I assume he's really gwapo in person. Relax lang ako, dahil I'm alone. But I still join the crowd while watching him perform. He comes to his cute stage (insert sound of the shouting girls again), he started singing, I'm mesmerized. Aaaaaaaw, my dream guy. It's my heart that shouts. I had this admiration for certain chinitos, and he's perfectly qualified! <3 I actually see Mr.LoveatFirstSight in him. Back to show, ayun, nakijamming na din kahit solo flight ako. He sang 5 songs, good compositions indeed. He plays guitar, then piano. Aaaaaw. I'm melting. 'Hey Daydreamer' really suits me. Hahaha. After the show, we lined up for the M&G. I met a 13 year old dreamer, named Myka. That's a bonus when you attend gigs, meeting new friends. It's cool because we also found out that we are schoolmates. Falcon, let's go! While waiting for our turn in the autograph signing, we talk about Somedaydream, of course. Then, the organizers gave us paper so Rez can identify what to write in our posters. And I realized that our name rhymes. Jez meet Rez, Rez meet Jez. Ang cute lang. Kinilig na ko nun. Ang babaw lang. Haha. Then ayun, autograph, picture. He's nice. I wanted to say something, but I was speechless. Starstruck. Sabi ko nalang, 'rhyme yung name natin no'. He answered 'oo nga no' yata. After the Rez moment, I wanted to approach Cher for photo but I was shy and no one will take the picture. So I look for Myka and her mom, they're outside, and woah, Kuya Champ was there. Sayang nga lang wala kaming photo. If only I brought my Synergy album, kwento opportunity sana. Well, anyway, it's refreshing to see Kuya Champ again. Nakakagood vibes. Parang kailan lang, nung student pa ko pumupunta ako sa gig ng Hale, ngayon manager na sya, engineer na ko. We're both older and happier. And that daw was indeed blogabble, haha, I mean unforgettable kaya dapat nasa archives. :) Thank you Lord!

#HappinessJoyandLove

Warm Come Back

Yes, I'm a looser! I haven't talk to my elementary friends and high school buddies for so long, I don't have updates about my college friends, I miss watching gigs with my gigmates, I need to catch up with the Nixters, and I really wanted to unwind with my cousins.

And then one day, I felt a warm welcome. Bwahahaha. I am back to my...drum roll, please...SOCIAL LIFE. Oyeah!  ;P I finally  had time to go out again. That was site day, and I decided to leave earlier than the usual. Wohooo! Reunited with the Nixters. Finally. So, Nikki Gil is in Trinoma for the Sweet Charity mall show. Super glad to see Alyssa, Ate Louie, Syd, Lyka, Lj, Cess, and Kuya Calc again. Ate Louie said 'Buti naman nakasama ka Jez'. And if you saw me, I'm smiling the whole time. I love the feeling, ang gaan, ang good vibes. The show lasted for 30 minutes. It's nice to see Ate Nikki perform live again. Though, kahit sa tv, di ko na nga din sya napapanood e. Boo me! Anyway, after the show, one audience gave Lj her meet and greet stub. I told her pa nga 'Ipamigay mo nalang' since I expect na makakausap naman si Nikay after the show. Until she found out that the m&g is good for 6 persons. Hahaha. Buti nalang, nagbabasa. So we join the line for photo op.Yeeha! When it was our turn, Nikki was thrilled when she saw us, and of couse kami din, ang saya lang. She also told us to stay and wait for her. We waited for Nikki in the exit, and kasunod nya kami hanggang parking lot. Lj tease her, 'Nix, ice cream tayo'. And she said, 'tara'. We found ourselves in her car, 7 of us. Imagine, how fun was that. She ask if we want Starbucks or Shakey's or Don Henrico's, until we decided na sa Alex III nalang. The restaurant with the bonggang bonggang barbecue sauce according to Nikay. Haha. Good times. As usual, we talk about everything under the sun. The latest in our lives, my work, Syd's lovelife, the other Nixters/Nillys, Sweet Charity, Iya, Luis, showbiz updates, twitter, Nikki's projects, Kuya Billy, Louie-Calc love team, and many more. Super fun lang! Good, good night! After the dinner and kwentuhan, she accompanied us in MRT station. Super caring and appreciative, kaya we love her much much! <3 And then, I go home with a sweet smile. Thank you Nixters love, Thank you Nikki! xoxo

Bothered

Do you feel the same spark I felt
Seems like our smile were connected
When you stand in front of me, I wish it won't end
But I never want this to be complicated
Better if we just become friends.

Project 30 Day Blog 1/30

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

I guess this is the most recent since it's the last photo I am tagged in facebook. Taken last May 28,2011 at my inaanak/niece's debut. Headed to Cavite immediately after work to celebrate good times with family and relatives. That's my brother beside me, btw. Para naman may sense tong post na 'to, let me share the message I dedicate to Yen since isa ako sa mga 18 toasts for wisdom wherein hindi ko naman nasabi personally dahil late ako. Anyway, here's the message:

Dear Yen
You're independent but do know that I'm always here when you need help.
You're smart but don't hesitate to ask me when there are questions that bothers you.
You're older now but find time to do the things you enjoy when you were young.
You're not a kid thus be mature enough to know your responsibilities.
Your beautiful, stay as you are inside and out.
Happy happy birthday.
I'm proud of you and I love you.
Ninang Maye

15 interesting facts about me

Mygawd! Writer's block again. First fact palang, blanko na ko. Hmmmm.

1. I'm still in love with the guy who made me believe in love at first sight.

2. Call me baduy. Fine. But I listen to Papa Dan's Wanted Sweetheart and it never fails to make me laugh.

3. May crush ako sa office. Yiheee. I won't tell though.

4. I enjoy watching Spongebob Squarepants. Who doesn't anyway.

5. I have cassette tapes of A-1, Westlife, and Jolina Magadangal's On Memory Lane.

6. I am a fan of Judy Ann Santos back when I was young. Mom and I used to cut her pictures in newspapers and we put it in a scrapbook. Note: I have posters too. Haha.

7. The first ever movie I saw in theater was "Ang Ibong Adarna".

8. I like munching sari-sari store junk foods like tattoos, chippee, xsakto, and the like.

9. On summer of 2003, I was hit by a motorcycle and confined in the hospital. Scars stayed in my arms. :/

10. I'm currently reading The Unbearable Lightness of Being because it is Kuya Yan and Yael's favorite book.

11. One of the highlight of my high school days was me being a catechist. I taught religion in different public school students in our town. Satisfying indeed.

12. I'm stuck in here.

13. Taylor Swift's song entitled "The Best Day" made me cry. Taylor is 1 month older than me, btw. And also, we're both born on 13th day of the month.

14. I use to collect Winnie the Pooh items during elementary days.

15. I want a best friend.

Bow. Was that interesting?!

Project 30 Day Blog

30-day blog project. For sure I can't accomplish this one for 1 month, I'll be doing this once in a while, give me time. I'm lost. I.miss.blogging.

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02 - The meaning behind your blog name

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06 - Favorite super hero and why

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09 - Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11 - Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12 - How you found out about blogspot and why you made one

Day 13 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14 - A picture of you and your family

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16 - Another picture of yourself

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19 - Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23 - Something you crave for a lot

Day 24 - A letter to your parents

Day 25 - What I would find in your bag

Day 26 - What you think about your friends

Day 27 - Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30 - Your favorite song.

Credits to  http://landofwhatmighthavebeens.blogspot.com/2011/06/30-day-blog-project.html

To The Sky

Owl City is real fab. I've been singing this song throughout the day! :) And I love it even more when my crush liked it in my Facebook post! :)) I'm kilig! I bet he's not reading this post.

And by the way, I'm enjoying my new blogger lay-out! =P

My Band

1 - Go to wikipedia and hit random. The first random wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to quotationspage.com and hit random. The last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to flickr and click on “explore the last seven days”. Third picture no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4 - Use photoshop or similar (picnik.com is a free online photo editor) to put it all together.

5 - Post it with this text in the "caption" and TAG the friends you want to join in.

Frustrated

Some things really don't happen the way we want it to be. This past few days seem to be not so right for me. I've been to sleepless nights and endless thinking days. Two things. Work and Taylor Swift.

It was two months ago when my career path is steady and going well. When I passed the board exam last November, I felt all the good vibes in the world. I am real thrill and happy, thinking about landing a job few days after I rest and relax. I started the job application last January. I emailed and went to different companies since then. I enjoyed the experience because that was my first task in this new chapter of my life. That two months was all about going home tired, updating tita, mama, and papa about the job hunt, expecting a call from a company but never hear from them, befriending co-applicants, taking math exams, essays, i.q. and personality tests, receiving message for a scheduled interview, meeting hrd heads and engineers, and responding some good and not so good answers in interviews. But as of now, I still don't have any job, while everyone seems to be practicing their profession, and enjoying the Civil Engineering industry. It's like I've been waiting for so long. I feel like I'm left out. I'm bored at home, I'm not in the mood to read, I don't enjoy being online, I don't like watching tv, I'm not cool in blogging & writing as of the moment. I want a job. I have two pending job application now and I'm optimistic about it. I'm still patiently waiting for the right moment, right timing where God will give me the best that I deserve.  

Dilemma No.2. Taylor Swift Live in Manila on the 19th. I am totally in love with her and I'm feeling sad and disappointed 'coz I won't be able to watch her concert. Ever since I heard the news the she's coming here, I had the T-Swizzle syndrome. I have planned that I will join all the contests that will give free passes to her show, or purchase even the general admission tickets. The number of jobs I applied for appears to be the the number of contests I've participated. And it's plenty to count. I also call Ticketnet for almost three weeks, I think, asking for the ticket availability since it was sold out when I decided to buy one already. And like my dream work, I also haven't got my dream Taylor Swift concert ticket. My consolation is to know Ronna, who is one of the winner of Taylor meet and greet passes, I asked her a favor to give my gift and letter for Tay, and hopefully she can also ask Tay to sign my Speak Now album. Ronna is nice and sweet, she deserves to win the passes, meeting her is kinda cool. And as for me, I've decided not to go since I still don't have any job and it means I don't have money. I never wanted to be so happy with Taylor and soon after, be back in thinking about my career dilemma. Perhaps someday, somewhere, when everything feels fine, maybe I can watch her concert and even get up close and personal with her. Only God knows, and nothing is impossible with him. I trust his plans for my life.

It's just today, I'm frustrated.

Made my day!

Thank you Karen! :P
Thank you Kuya Yan! :))