Feeling Meh

I envy your girl

Should I have known you earlier

We could've been together.

I hate this feeling

Of hoping and falling

Of endless thinking.

You can't be mine

Not this time

Never today.

I hate you

I love you

I don't want to.

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Can one day be tomorrow?!

Unfocused

Today's note to self:

Do not be too clingy. 

Do not be too clingy.

Do not be too clingy.

smh / fml / kmn

I do not love you

I love your personality
I love your humor
I love our conversations
I love what we are
I love where we are
I love how we are
I love us

I do not romantically love you
But I am afraid that I am getting there. Again.

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Thankful for not so dreadful Saturday.

Thankful for you.

Let tomorrow be the same.

Let 26th be as fine as today.

Awe in Aura

I forced the Prod team to join me in their night out. I even invite other CCD friends to come. Thanks to the two boys who were not able to join, thus we are able to tag along using the budget allotted to them.


I am truly in awe in SM Aura.


It was my first time to eat in Yabu. It was good.

The exchange of stories, mostly office chika was fun.

I enjoyed strolling in the mall. I remember going shopping for party dresses there but it was just yesterday when I appreciate the whole area especially the sky garden. But Aura is too sosyal for me. Meh.

It was my first time to watch in 3d cinema.

I SAW #THEPATS. I am doubtful at first because Patty is so slim preggy. Then I saw Patrick- the tall, handsome, ideal husband.

J: Hi Ms.Patty
P: Oh hi sorry
J: I read your blogs
P: Aw thank you
J: Nagdadalawang isip nga ako kasi parang di ka buntis
P: Aw Hindi nga e
J: Pwedeng magpapicture?
P: Sure sure.
J: Thank you.
P: Manonood din kayo?
J: Opo. Salamat    

Then Jez died. Haha

I honestly enjoyed watching Avengers. My friend was actually right when she said "nabubuhay ka na nga ng normal na buhay tapos ganyan pa yung genre ng movie mo. Maybe it's time that you try fantasy." And then I did. And then I appreciated it.


I got home by 4am then. Without the documents needed for the meeting. Without enough sleep for a full day hectic schedule. With a 9:30am client turnover and I was still home at 8:30. But I manage to survive the day with happy thoughts.

Thank you God for days like these and for friends like them.

Dear Attorney

I am glad you still remember my name. You called me Jessa though I'd love to hear Jessa Maye.

We are exchanging jokes like we used to before.

You hold my phone. You used my phone. Haha. Babaw.

The "di ba engineer ka?" question. Bakit ka nasa ccd? 

E nasa piling nyo sana ko Sir, kung wala ka pang misis. Haha

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Some days are recorded as happy. Just like that day. Memory worthy but I ain't sharing. Ktnxbye.

Clueless

I don't know where I am.

I don't know what are we.

I don't know how this happen.

What I know is I am clueless.

April High

1) I am glad to have talk to you again. We were laughing the whole time just like how we used to. It was a good catch up.

2) Long time no see, my favorite attorney.  You're too cute in your barong. Then we wondered why lawyers abroad are wearing suits. 

3) Expand your horizons. The wisdom I heard tonight. I am pressured and confused and undecided. I am actually expanding horizons on a different way. My kind of thing. I'll explain some time.

4) I am watching The Script concert. Yey! And then I think about work. And then I think about schedules. And then I think about us. Too many stuff juggling on my mind.

5) Kill me now. Kill me no.

Solo Flight

I am currently alone. Thinking of things I shouldn't care about. Decoding situations I am not supposed to. Having emo feels that I thought I'm over with.

But I know I am happy. I laugh out loud every once in a while. I do comedy, throwing jokes and punchlines. I listen and read and watch fun stuff. 

I don't know what I want. I cannot decide what will make me complete. Or at least satisfied. 

I don't like being alone. I wanted to talk...to you, maybe. I miss sharing my stories with you and how you gladly listen. 

It's been two months of craziness and weirdness.

Thank you.