The Dress

I sleep late the night before. I woke up at 4:30 am the following day. I lack sleep. Nevertheless, I feel happy that morning. I am cheerful and up for good vibes.

That day,the social media is on noise. I checked Twitter and the top trending is #TheDress. I browse instagram and saw arguments on whether the dress is white and gold or black and blue. My Facebook timeline is flooded with the dress photos.

I cannot understand why others keep telling that the dress is black and blue. Obviously, I am team white and gold. I can clearly see the white and gold detail in the dress. Although at glance, I can see shade of blue, lightest blue. So I switch to blue and gold. Haha. Maybe because I am open to listen and look why on earth they are telling that the color is black and blue.

I've search answers from the Internet but I was never satisfied with the explanation.

 But Taylor does see black and blue. Whyyyyyy?

On that same day when I confidently said I am happy, I discover a thing that somehow made me feel down. My feelings are kinda abnormal. At any moment, I can shift moods given unexpected scenarios. We all are. I was actually crying on my way home. But I am no bipolar please. Haha.

So my friend sent this explanation. I still do not believe.

I was still bothered at midnight. I decided to check the same photo in instagram and in disbelief, I am seeing black and blue. Damn you emotions. Haha.


When I check again in the morning, I saw white and gold. And while I am writing this post, the photo is black and blue again. I guess I know the answer. Am I insane now? Haha. How about you? What colors do you see?

TGFF

I love meeting new people. My job allowed me to enjoy the opportunity to do so. I've been to different eye balls and meet ups. Never tried blind dating though. I am no Ms. Congeniality but I am blessed to have few good friends for keeps. Since today is Friday, I thought of writing a TGIF post. I changed it to TGFF though - Thank God For Friends.

I have a childhood sweetheart which I haven't had communication since he left after his vacation in our town. His lolo used to update me about him and lets me see his latest photos. I remember he is my first friend. I was three back then.

During elementary when you are required to have bestfriend/s, I met lovely girls named Sharlene, Anna, Kaypee, Leah,and Sherlene. Okay,so we had a group name - sajkls. Never will I forget the public school memories and growing up days. Every once in a while we tried to get in touch especially during holidays when it's the time of the year of hometown uwian. TGFF, thank God for Facebook. Nah. I mean thank God for friends. The last time I was with them was actually during All Saints Day when we visited the grave of our friend, Anna. I miss the grade school friends.

At my early teens, we transfer in village and there I met the village kids. We've pioneer a youth organization and establish good neighborhood. Good times are remembered from basketball leagues, village parties, newsletter writing, and different summer activities. I keep in touch with them through social media also. I never came back to the village though after parting ways with the ex.

My highschool loves are the best. I was actually part of two barkadas, all with awesome personalities. Ncoab (Joel, Reineer, Abi, Diane, Imee, Tristan, Kate, She, Levy, Diana, Melsheena) and Otheezt (Alfie, William, Hachel, Rachel, Mara, Kat). Most are the smart guys from the class. We (we talaga,with conviction.haha) are among the prettiest, the talented, the varsities, and the creative people. We've had some share of popularity in the campus but what we are proud of is the happy friendship we made.

I also have my solid Nixter friends. We applause for one celebrity only, Ate Nikki. We bonded from mall shows, to eat outs, birthday celebrations, Christmas party, tapings, and many more activities for the love of Nikki. Moreover, we managed to see each other even though there are no gigs. I am now into six years of loving my fan friends. Thanks Nikay who's the main reason why we build the happy relationship.

The girlfriends whom I met in gigs are also my loves. Rhona, Mhadz, Shay, Millet, and Karen are Sponge Cola fanatic like me. It's just today I've lost enthusiasm in gig hang outs. Guess I've overcome the crushing Yael days. Someday soon I can still try to come to shows. What I actually miss is the conversations with Kuya Yan. For now, I would like to thank god again for Facebook. I mean for friends.

My college loves gotta be my favorite. The whole batch was very close. Never we had competition on grades, only we were there to help each other. From projects, to plates, to thesis, to exams. From family problems, to financial, to friendship, and jowa rants. We managed to continue the closeness even after graduation. We enrolled in different review centers for us to share notes. We celebrated board exam success and cheered up the others who didn't make it. We are on weddings, birthdays, christening, despedidas, random inumans and every events we could possibly meet up. Our reunions are always full of laughter.

When I landed the job in Vista, I was the bunso in the department. I'm glad to have met friends from my batch at other departments. The company have hired amazing people. In my almost four years in CCD, I have acquired three different set of friends in the department. First is with the kuyas Gremar, JR, Elgie, Lester. I'm glad to have brothers from the workplace. I am thankful that they never bullied me. Second group was the pinakacrazy. Maybe because we are of the same ages. The mixture of makulit boys and girls who always gets sermon when laughing in the counter, whose night outs are always eat all you can, and the group with lots of healthy rants. Most of them are now in Singapore. We now hang out when there are balikbayans. Currently, I am with young girls and I am the big sister. My CCD loves now is with age range from 21-23. I get the feeling that I need to be mature when I'm with them. Or not. Haha.

Life is a wonderful journey. Share it with good friends, laugh around them, cry along them, be goofy and crazy, and most of all, be trusted. Value friendship.

P.S.I will update the throwback photos when I went home.

All Things Happy

My bookshelf at home consists of titles "The Happiness Project" and "This is what happy looks like". My aunt asks me, "are you not happy?" 

My blog also consists of unhappy poetry.

Activity: Count the word "happy" in this post. Hehe

So I was pressured to post happy thoughts. Guess I'm over with the heartbreak rants thus permit me to write about all things happy. I believe I could finish another round of 100 happy days and share a story of laughter everyday. Here now I will be sharing my current joy.


1. A no more. Yey! Stalking no more but still in a few poems. At least I can now smile about whatever past we had. No more bitter days,only better.

2. Ed Sheeran concert. I've been catching up on memorizing Teddy's concert set list because it's only few number of days from today before his Multiply Tour in Manila. I just cannot contain the excitement. Early apologies to the fans beside me. Please do not record the whole concert if you don't want to be disappointed. Coz we're in gen ad anyway.

3. All the LOL times with my #PJdessert girls. What brought us closer was actually Jaymee's broken heart. Might be also the reason why she always treat us for snacks. From then on, we've managed to exchange unsolicited jokes, throw punchlines, and laugh at shallow stories. We made fun of Jinky's wedding planning and baby bam bam was born. Our topics range from Jaymee's smooth biking boy, solving mystery in 50 shades of greenfield,and talking about Jinky's treating fb addiction. Our arguments from my "yes" to Mariz' "no" and Jinky's neutral answer "ikaw bahala" and "ano bang feeling mo". Lately we've tried guessing what Jinky's blog may be.

So the eldest was actually bullied. We love you Chinky. We talk serious but most of the time we're insane. The serious stuff shall be up on another post.

4. All the Manila concerts for 2015. I missed Bastille last January. Gladly I was able to watch The 1975. I am a happy fan girl when I found out that the artists I love will held concerts in Manila. At the same time, I am frustrated on how will I budget the ticket purchase and who's artist will I prioritize. I am sure going to Ed Sheeran as I mentioned and yup I am watching One Direction. I am planning to watch Owl City since it's a free show. Please take me to The Script, BSB, Katy Perry, Sam Smith and Maroon 5 shows. Or at least take me to the embrace of Adam Levine. Hehe

5. I am on 4 year count to Vista. Time flies so fast, I never thought that this job will be for long term. I've been around awesome people, good and not so good clients, learned my lessons, and had such great experience. So far, I knew I love my job.

6. College batch catch up. It seems true that at least every 5 years, you will have different group of friends you will mostly hang out with. I can attest to that. Thus, I always look forward to reunions. College friends were my favorite. I am glad that our planned get togethers are pushing through. I always enjoy university days flashback, sharing updates about old classmates and personal life, the civil engineering industry, and many "do you remember this and that?" stories.

8. Nikay's engagement to Kuya BJ. I've witnessed the ups and downs of her lovelife. I am happy to be trusted as she able to tell her new love story to us. I am happy to see Nikay at her best life now and in her wonderful journey with Mr.Albert. She truly is blessed with the love that she deserves. This is worthy of hashtag #relationshipgoals.

9. A more meaningful relationship with the parents. Closer bond with the brother. And forgiveness to the sister. I am done with too much drama. Guess I'm fine with the situation now.

10. Keeping social with a stranger. I like it that simple without fancy or pa cute messages. It was light and a little bit of fun in between. It is nice.

Life is short. Break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.

Sunday

Silent

Slow

Sad

Sorry.

I used to love Sundays.

Never I'm a fan of our Sundays though.

Firework

Glow and glitter

Glam and flicker.

Color ablaze

Shining glaze.

Bright sky

Lit up high.

She adore glamour

She could've chosen a star.

The reality is you cannot have fireworks everyday.

Game of Love

Please don't stay 

If you're going to break my heart anyway

Please don't be nice 

I never want to hear lies 

Please don't make me fall 

If you can't catch me after all 

Please don't make me smile 

If in the end you will bid goodbye. 

Guess what? I just met another heart break. When will I ever learn.

 

Of haha and awkward messages

Dear A, 

I hope this is the first and last Valentine's Day that I will think about you. Everytime I imagine us being together, I knew I am complicating things. It will always be uneasy hanging out with your friends, I cannot tag along in your basketball games, not a chance of introducing each other to our families. Our love is a real definition of awkward. It isn't worthy to fight for. 

Just after few months when I can confidently say I have moved on from the past love, you unexpectedly come my way. It isn't hard to like you. It isn't easy to forget you. You are everything adorable. You are all but lovable. I enjoy conversing with you. Our midnight talks are no non sense. We have a connection. We have an understanding or so I thought. 

Until one day we were silent. Then we are fighting and we suddenly lose each other. Now this love is mess and wasted and hated. But I did not regret meeting you. I did not regret our exchange of haha and awkward messages.

I can finally say I'm over you.

Always,