Those Nights

• Those nights I anticipate to see your name in my friend request notification or at least in my message box.
• Those nights I realize how happy and contented you are with your current relationship. It's nice to know you weren't publicly cheesy. Or not.
• Those nights I felt terribly jealous but I can't do anything but stare. It's actually painful.
• Those nights I melt when I see your pogi face and hear your pogi voice.
• Those nights when I wonder what could I be doing if I had not known you.
• I  like you. I hate you. I love you. S

For Mama's Birthday

You know very well that I grow up being a fan of many artist. I remember adoring celebrities at young age. We used to watch Villa Quintana at night, then became die hard fan of Judy Ann in Mara Clara. I can clearly recall when you use to buy me posters and create collage of Juday and Wowee. There came other popular Pinoy artists and you supplied me monthly copy of Starstudio magazine. I've been aficionado of international boy bands too and you bought me cassette tapes of those. There comes also Kristine-Jericho, Mark Herras, and Hale in my fan girl life. Up to now when there is Nikki Gil and Chris Tiu and more and I am very glad to have shared that idol-fan moments with you. You have your list of favorite icons too, from Juan Rodrigo to Rudy Fernandez to Joey de Leon to Daniel Razon. 

For many years we've been loving public figure because they are good with their crafts and they somehow made us relate our lives to them, become inspiration, and made us smile. Here's one thing I wanted you to know--long before I admire those celebrities, there is one person I can brag to be her biggest fan. And that is you, Mama! Having you as my mom is a blessing I am forever be thankful for. Here are 23 reasons why I idolize you and love you:

1.because of unconditional love you are giving to our family

2.for being at papa's side through the happiest and toughest time

3.for instilling in us the value of education

4.because you taught us to be God fearing

5.for the sacrifices and understanding. There are very rare moments that you've been mad to me. You're too kind.

6.for being an awesome supporter and proud mother

7.for influencing me to love books and music

8.for the discipline

9.for being brave at almost everything

10.for being my buddy, my bestfriend

11.for always listening and for giving sound advices

12.for spoiling me at times

13.for the wonderful bed time stories

14.for being my inspiration to dream big for my career

15.for the laughter we shared, for tears we shed.

16.for being appreciative

17.for the unsolicited embrace whenever you felt I needed

18.for perfectly doing the mama duties

19.for the values you taught us

20.for being open and for listening to our love stories

21.for being optimistic

22.for trusting me

23.for being my consultant

My 23 years of existence is worth living because you are my mother. You are simply the best. Thank you for everything and I love you. Happy happy birthday!

Truly your fan,

your daughter Maye :) 

Tsk.

I.SERIOUSLY.SHOULDN'T.HAVE.MESSAGE.HIM.IN.FACEBOOK.pfffft.

O.o

September 5th, 6th, and 7th

05.

I wish someday someone would write a poem for me.

Thank you for recognizing my smile. I'll always do if you ask me to. You're one of the few who appreciates. You're a good guy, we can be good friends.

It's always nice seeing you again. We're together again and I'm glad.

Heart is breaking last night and today and tomorrow. I never imagined I'll be attached to you that much.

06.

It's not even one freaking month. Can love at least be good to me? I guess I don't have to feel this and I hate what I am feeling now. The heartbeat isn't normal and I hate it. I really hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please stop hurting. :(

07.

Today happened to be one of the days that I wanted everything slow. I badly needed time to escape from work, from heartbreak, from emotions. If only we can spare a moment that is silent and peaceful and blank and free. Let feelings be extraordinary or at least worthy. I am sad.

Poem 119: S

i've spent too much time on daydreaming

i've invested too much Feelings

i've dreamt a happy future with yOu

but I guess this won't come true.

i imagine you in your blue unifoRm

tall and handsome college boy

with t-Square and plates hang on your shoulder

but you can never draw our lives together.

should I take the risk

to the Love i can't resist

will it be worth to pursue

or should i stop thinking of you.

i guess i'm so much into you

i have picture an ideal man in you

it all started in a story about debut

until i became attracted to eVerything about you.

i recently escape an unhappy dreAm

you rescue the loneliness within

i am Not always brave

i almost thought i am saved.

until i saw you beside a girl

listening music,preparing breakfast,watching movie

you became like some other guy

who just come to make me fall then bid goodbye.

you won't' understand me

coz you never knew me

we could be connected thru people around us

but in my path you might not pass.

September Thought

I. From Sunday to yesterday and today, your smile means to me. I'm glad that we're talking now. Your jokes in between are way too cute. :) 

II. We may not label ourselves as best friends but our conversations can prove how much our friendship have grown through time. I always enjoy our funny and happy and serious talks. 

III. Dear young man, I hope you are worth the wait.