03.01.2014

Maganda ka.
Nagpapahaba ka ng buhok no.
May boyfriend ka?

*dork*

Poem 121: Begin

my heart beats fast

as i pace too slow

excited to see your face

but too nervous to utter words.

tried to keep cool and calm

Just before the doorbell rang

from the background i heard daylight

that somehow set the mood right.

your gaze from the main door

your face i adore

your stature too tall

your Voice i recall.

you got some inquiries

that i hope i answered clearly

then out of the blue you told me

that i am pretty.

you appreciate my long hair

that i never like anyway

you ask me if i have a boyfrienD

i said none sir.

did i heard it clearly

or my mind wander

did i heard it right

or my heart falter.

then it felt awkward

that i had to change the subject

talk about something else

to keep the conversation longer.

845 am of march first

day i won’t forget, regret

the guy i always dreamt

there’s too much to admire.

Jehan

Way back 2005, I met Mai. He is one of the guys in our block section and we become close thru time. I am a witness to his love life. I remember when we were in second year college, we used to talk about this one girl he really adores. She is Jehan. The start of their love story was actually rough. I am Mai's listener when he felt sad as he told me about how Jehan was still confused on pursuing the relationship because she is still torn between the past and Mai. Their relationship was tested from the very  beginning yet the love was strong enough to save the wonderful story of their lives together. Jehan became very much welcome to be part of the barkada. My most remembered memories of her was when we had a tour in ABS studio (yeah,we're jologs), she's also present in barkada outings and inuman sessions. Jehan is a good friend. We exchange stories, we laugh with her, we love her. After seven long years, I am shocked to receive the news that Mai and Jehan already broke up. Mai shared to me what happened and the reason why. The wedding dreams for them got shattered. Months later, as seen in facebook, they seem to have moved on. They go on with their lives as individuals, different from the couple we used to know.

Days ago, I was browsing facebook when I saw that Mai posted a photo collage of him and Jehan. Seeing it take me back to the days of their love story. But as I check the post, I cannot believe what am I actually reading. I got so confused that I had to visit Jehan's page. Eventually, I confirmed that she passed away. The lovely girl, dedicated nurse, kind hearted person has gone too soon. True enough that this could be the reason why the two broke up--so it won't be too much hurtful for the part of Mai to see her die young. But still truly heart breaking.

You'll be miss, Jehan. 1988-2014